Good & Broken

are you overloaded, candy coated
Your life's imploding now ?
There's a risk worth taking. a pain worth aching on this hollow ground
we can let go, don't hold on to all of life's hardest parts
We can break out of here, jump on over there where the air is clearer
We can Forget the pace, Win in our own race
Become a broken chain, We are broken chains ~ Good and broken
~

Miley Cyrus ~ Good and broken

it takes more strength to let go

I can't believe she's gone..I try to occupy my time with work and people so as not to think much about it, but I was at her house and the 1st thing I did was looking for her in every room, for a second it seemed like a silly joke then I realized she's really gone. many memories came flooding back and that was the hardest part. I used to love her smile, her elegance, her smell, and now I hate that it's just fading away ...

at times I used to think it'd be better for her and for all of us, and that's what I regret most, I was only being selfish, I didn't realize I'd miss her that much.. even after all the troubles we have faced, she left and it's not any better, just the pain of her farewell .

it's not that I can't see her any more, the thing is that I see her constantly like she's right beside me, she's always in my mind, and it seems like everybody's taking it well except for me. it's been more than a month and I just can't seem to accept it. sometimes it takes more strength to let go than to keep holding on. maybe I'm not that strong? I dont know...,I know she's in a better place, but I just wish I had spent more time with her when I could. but I have to move on even if i dont want to.

To anyone who reads this, cherish the people in your life because you dont know when they might have to go..

Rest in peace my Grandmother

I love you

اللهم ارحم موتى المسلمين الذين شهدوا لك بالوحدانية و لنبيك بالرسالة و ماتوا على ذلك