01‏/08‏/2010

Moon River wider than a Mile. I will be crossing u in style someday ~ oh dream maker, you heart breaker wherever u'r going I'm going ur way ~ ~ two drifters off to see the world, there is such a lot of world to see ~ we're after the same rainbow's end.. waiting 'round the bend ~ my huckleberry friend ~ moon river and Me ~ ♥

28‏/07‏/2010

just like heaven


show me how you do the trick
the one that makes me scream - he said
the one that makes me laugh - he said
and threw his arms around my neck
show me how you do it and I promise you
I promise that I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you
spinning on a dizzy edge
I kissed his face and I kissed his head
and dreamed of all the different ways I had to make him glow
why are u so far away? - he said
why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
that I'm in love with you - you
soft and only you
lost and lonely you
strange as angels -
dancing in the deepest oceans

twisting in the water - you're just like a dream
you're just like a dream
daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
and moving my lips to breathe his name
I opened up my eyes ~ I found myself alone, alone
alone - above the raging sea -
that stole the only boy I loved and drowned him deep inside of me
you, soft and only you
lost and lonely you
just like heaven
Katie melua



30‏/06‏/2010

Let me


let me paint us in a picture and everything will freeze by the time i'm done
we will always stay young and we will always smile
you'll never frown nor feel sad again because of me
you'll never have to think of the ways of how to please me
let me get the brushes, just let me paint us happy
let my brush do the trick and lets all stop feeling guilty
as years pass by, as i fight the evil dragon on top of the castle for you,
as i forget how to cry, as i become a soulless knight just to protect your world from falling thru,
as i forget how you looked and how you sounded deep blue,
i will still do my magic during the battles I'm having, i will still take a moment and think of you.
no huge storms, no dragons, no burning flames of armies can stop me from doing this,
i will n
ever give up on fighting, i won't lose my faith in the eternal bliss.
i know there will be a place far from rightdoings and wrongdoings, i know i will again, be with you
let me break your heart a million times, let me fix it once again,
let me leave you with a heartache, let me do my choices that I'll distain
now let me paint us in a picture and everything will freeze by the time i'm done
we will always stay happy and we will never frown
now i will just paint this picture, i will, one day, rescue you
till that time comes, just remember that i've always loved you.

24‏/06‏/2010

Dawson and Joey - Dawson's Creek


You're born, you die and you make a lot of mistakes in between.

Joey: People change, Dawson.
Dawson: They don't have to.
Joey: Yes, they do. People die, and they move away... and they grow up. Everthing changes eventually

Because once upon a time, we were best friends. And, yes, there's been a lot of bad stuff in between. But none of that matters right now, okay? You need me, I'm there. Any time, any place, anywhere

I've stumbled and picked myself up, and stumbled and picked myself up … over and over again with no safety net

Don't let yourself get so angry that you stop loving, because one day you will wake up from that anger and the person you love won't be around anymore.

There are certain people who are not meant to fit in your life, no matter how much you want them to.

It's not that I want to be the one holding your hand, it's just that I don't want her to be the one holding it

Dawson: Hey, once upon a time, you yourself told me that some love stories never end. What happened to that girl?
Joey: She offered herself to the boy she loved. The boy she thought loved her back. And he rejected her.

When a girl hates you the way she hates you, that really means she likes you. That's basic kindergarten psychology.

maybe it's the only way that we can finally stand on our own. Ya know, to hurt each other so much that we have no choice but to let go... maybe otherwise we never would.

You're probably right...I'm sure I don't have any idea what you're going through. How hard it is to let someone go. How painful it must be to know that as right as you two are for each other, it doesn't mean you're right for each other right now. I wouldn't know a thing about that. About how it makes you want to scream, or hit someone...or cry.

I guess everyone has someone who challenges them, and makes them shoot for something just beyond their reach. You're that person for me

If you and I aren't meant to be, then I don't know anything

You wanna know what the truth is? I still love you and I probably will love you for a very long time. But I can't just be your buddy, because as much as i enjoy the concept of being "just friends" in reality it's a bizarre form of torture and i'm just not willing to participate in it. so right now what i wanna do is just move on and get over you and the only way for me to do that is to not be around you anymore.

I know that things between us are pretty much beyond repair right now. And I wouldn't ever presume to try and make everything better with a conversation, so that's not what this is -- but I just wanted to tell you, I wanted to say ... I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the pain it caused you. But mostly I'm sorry for my part in it. But mostly I'm sorry because I miss our friendship. And however far off it may be, I look forward to the day that we can be friends again

Listen to me: If we are truly meant to be, then we will find our way back to each other. It's as simple as that.

You know, it's weird how you still love the person, you just stop needing them the way you used to

How did I go from turning the corner of possibility to nothing at all?

My life was a sea of conflicting emotions,but the one thing kept me going was our bond... our connection. It made me feel like I wasn't alone, like i was part of something special. I'm not whining about being friends or not, but I'm not feeling that connection and it scares me.

To love someone when there is no chance of that love ever thriving.. that is romance.

Letting go isn't a one time thing, its something you do everyday, over and over again.

You wanted a kiss. Is that what you want? Are you prepared for everything that comes with that kiss? cause it doesnt just end with a fade out. There are repercussions. Hearts get broken. Friendships get ruined. Your entire life could fall apart because of one kiss. That's what you have to look foward to. Do yourself a big favor.. don't rush it.

joey? She's great. I mean she's...she's smart. She's beautiful. She's funny. She's a big ol' scaredy cat. If you creep up behind her she'll jump out of her skin. It's pretty amusing. Um, she's honest. She always calls them just like she sees them. You can always count on getting the truth from Joey even if the truth hurts. She's stubborn. We fight a lot. She can be so frustrating sometimes. But she's a really, really good friend. And loyal to a fault, she's...she believes in me. And I'm a dreamer so I mean, it's so good to have somebody like that in my life. God, if she goes away I don't know what I'm going to do. I mean she's...she's my best friend, you know? She's... she's more than that ...she's everything

joey:I'm scared that I'm going to end up alone. I'm scared that I'm always going to be somebody's friend, or sister, or confidant, never quite somebody's everything. Mostly I'm scared I'm never going to find a guy that I love as much as I love you.

because life, much like a french movie, rarely makes any sense, but when its right, its right, and you dont question it, you dont think, you dont ponder, you just exist

When I sleep with someone for the first time, I don't want it to be for just any reason. I want it to be for every reason.

It's like you get this picture in your head of the way things should be, and you end up closing yourself off to some of the wonder and serendipity of the actual experience

It's like your heart has been ripped out and stomped on. You.. you can't breathe, you don't want to eat, you can't function. It's the most intense pain that you'll ever feel, and there's no way to relieve it. It's unyielding, merciless torture, and you know its yours for life

But that's just it, the butterflies never seem to accompany the right people. All the nice guys who are right for you, they never make your stomach go flip flop...

Sometimes the hardest things to say are the things that really matter

I think sometimes you have to lose someone completely before you can figure out what they really mean to you

the truth is in time thats all we'll be to each other anyway, a population of memories, some wonderful and endearing, some less so, but taken together, these memories help make us who we are and who we will be

for the longest time i was just trying to find someone to love as much as i loved you, but now i realize thats never going to happen

I used to be afraid of so many things, that I'd never grow up, that I'd be trapped in the same place for all eternity, that my dreams would forever be shy of my reach, it's true what they say, time plays tricks on you. one day youre dreaming the next your dream has become your reality and now that the scared little girl no longer follows me wherever I go, i miss her. i do. because there are things that i want to tell her, to relax, to lighten up, that it is all going to be okay.

I like that you ramble when you're nervous, I like that I know that you ramble when you're nervous, and I like that I still make you nervous..

In the best, most desirable way -- you scare me. But I love the way you scare me but it makes me nervous and then I say or do something really stupid so I spend all this energy coming up with ideas to be smart so that you don't think I'm stupid and those ideas ihherently backfire therefore making me look more stupid. It's a vicious circle, and I'm at the end of my rope because all I really want to do is kiss you and feel if I don't kiss you soon I'm gonna explode.

Dawson: Jo, you're not a bad friend. I don't get to say it much anymore, but... You're my best friend. You always were. No matter where you are, no matter where your life may take you, and no matter who you're with...

Joey: You'll always have a piece of my hear?t.

Dawson: Something like that.

Joey: Yeah. Doesn't have to be a huge piece.

Dawson: No, no, no, no. Not a huge piece. Just enough. You know, tiny piece.

Joey: I was scared.
Dawson: Of what?
Joey: Of going backwards, of never growing up.
Dawson: That's what I represent to you?
Joey: No, not you. Us. I started this year thinking that I had to say good-bye to you, but I was wrong. Dawson, you're a huge part of my life-- past, present, and future-- and I have to start getting used to that because... you make my life better, not worse

You know those moments when you totally don't wanna cry, but... you're not quite sure what else to do

Joey: So the friendship? You don't think we're friends anymore?
Dawson: I don't know. Are we more? Are we less? All I know is it's just not the way it used to be. Nothing is anymore.
Joey: It's called social evolution, Dawson. What's strong enough flourishes and what doesn't we look at behind glass cases in science museums.
Dawson: You and I? Are we museum bound

You're off the hook. I've never really put much faith in all that "if you love someone, set them free" crap, as evidenced by everything I've done in my life up to this very moment, but I am determined to be happy, Joey. Happy in this life. And I love you. I mean, I always-- I have always, always loved you. But our timing has just never been right

Theres a part of me that's gonna be in love with you for the rest of my life..


Dawson's Creek 1



Joey: I was scared.
Dawson : Of what?
Joey : Of going backwards, of never growing up.
Dawson : That's what I represent to you?
Joey : No, not you. Us. I started this year thinking that I had to say good-bye to you, but I was wrong. Dawson, you're a huge part of my life - past, present, and future - and I have to start getting used to that because... you make my life better, not worse

Dawson: I'm mad at the world, Joey, I'm a teenager.

Joey: So the friendship? You don't think we're friends anymore?
Dawson : I don't know. Are we more? Are we less? All I know is it's just not the way it used to be. Nothing is anymore.
Joey : It's called social evolution, Dawson. What's strong enough flourishes and what doesn't we look at behind glass cases in science museums.
Dawson : You and I? Are we museum bound?


Pacey: Tell me is it the possibility of losing him to someone else that suddenly makes him seem so attractive?
Jen : You really think that I am that shallow, huh?
Pacey : No. I think you're that human

Pacey: You know, it's amazing. A personality like yours and you still can't get any dates.
Joey: Even more amazing: personality like yours and you can.

Growing up sucks. Not all kisses are magic, and most boys do not live up to your expectations, but there are those times when everything, I mean love, romance, relationships, it all falls together perfectly and it's incredible. It's those moments, no matter how depressingly few and far between, that make growing up worth it

Brooks: And remember, you're still young enough to fall in and out of love a few more times before you get it right.
Dawson: That doesn't sound very fun.
Brooks: It isn't...And it is... And it isn't. But it's worth it. Every single time.


23‏/06‏/2010

If GOD answers ur PRAYERS, HE is increasing ur FAITH.If HE delays, HE is increasing ur PATIENCE.If HE doesnt answers, HE knows that YOU CAN HANDLE IT PERFECTLY

20‏/06‏/2010

It takes a crane to build a crane, It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen it takes a hen to make an egg there is no end to what I'm saying
It takes a thought to make a word
and it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction
life is wonderful. life goes full circle

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other
And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished
life is wonderful, life goes full circle
life is so rough, life is our love

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

life is wonderful, life is meaningful

18‏/06‏/2010

falling slowly



14‏/06‏/2010

it's ridiculous, it's been months for some reason I just cant get over us, and am stronger than this
Enough is enough, no more walking round with my head down. am so over being blue crying over you
and am so sick of love songs, so tired of tears. so done with wishing ur still here
am so fed up with my thoughts of u and ur memory and how every song reminds me of what used to be. said am so sick of love songs so tired of tears, so done with wishing ur still here

08‏/06‏/2010

am so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if u have to leave, I wish that u'd just leave cuz ur presence still lingers here, and it wont leave me alone
these wounds wont seem to heal, this pain is just too realll.. there's just too much that time cannot erase
when u cried, I'd wipe away all of ur tears
when u screamed, I'd fight away all of ur fears
and i held ur hands thru all of these years. but u still have All of me
u used to captivate me by ur resonating light
now am boudnd by the life u left behind
ur face it haunts, my once pleasant dreams
ur voice it chased away, all the sanity in me
there's just too much that time cannot erase
I have tried so hard to tell myself that u'r gone
but though u'r still with me, I have been alone all along
AMY LEE

02‏/06‏/2010

you and I both loved

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen, but not to me. oh things are gonna happen naturally?! am taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side and balancing the whole thing..... but at often times those words get tangled up in lines and the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings another day to sing about the magic that was you and me
Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of, others only read of the love, the love that I love.
See I'm all about them words! over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards..more words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive
You and I, you and I ~ Not so little you and I anymore
and with this silence brings a moral story more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy!
cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of, and others just dream of the love that I love and if you could see me now.. Well I'm almost finally.. am almost finally.. well finally I'm free, oh, I'm free
And it's okay if you had go away, just remember the telephone works both ways and if I never ever hear them ring... If nothing else I'll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else and that's okay! cause I'll remember everything you sang
Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of. and others just read of... and if you could see now well I'm almost finally out of. well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words
:)
JASON MRAZ

26‏/05‏/2010

it only hurts when I'm breathing

hope life's been good to u since u 've been gone
am doing fine now I finally moved on, it's not so bad, am not that sad
am not surprised just how well I survived, am over the worst and I feel so alive, I cant complain, am free again
and it only hurts when am breathin', my heart only breaks when it's beatin', my dreams only die when am dreamin' so I hold my breath. to forget
don't think am lyin' round cryin' at night, there's no need to worry am Really alright
I never looked back, as a matter of fact. but it only hurts when I breathe
SHANIA TWAIN

25‏/05‏/2010

Wait for you

I never felt nothing in the world like this before, now am missing u and wishing u'd come back through my door, why did u have to go, u could've let me know, so now am all alone
u could have stayed but u wouldnt gimme a chance, with u not around it's a lil bit more than I can stand. and all my tears they keep running down my face, why did u turn away
so why does ur pride make run and hide, are you that afraid of me? But i know it's a lie what u keeping inside, this is not how u want it to be
so babe I'll wait for u, cuz I dont know what else I can do, dont tell me I run out of time, if it takes the rest of my life
babe I'll wait for u, if u think i find it just ain't true, I relle need u in my life, no matter what I have to do, I'll wait for u
been along time since u called me, how could u forget about me? u gotta be feeling crazy. how can u walk away?! everythn's still the same, I just can do it babe
what will it take to make u come back? i told u what it is , and it just aint nothing like that, why cant u look at me ? ur' still in love with me. dont leave me crying
so why cant we just start it all over again, get it back to the way it was. if u gimme a chance I can love u right but u'r telling me it wont not enough
so why does ur pride make run and hide, are you that afraid of me? But i know it's a lie what u keeping inside, this is not how u want it to be, I will wait for u if it's the last thing I do
Elliot Yamin, Wait for you

20‏/05‏/2010

thinking of u

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if you were the one who was spending the night
I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best
You said there's tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I Was looking into your eyes

You're the best, and yes I do regret
How I could let myself let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay..

18‏/05‏/2010

I've been running in circles all day long,,I'm out of breath but am still going strong. I'm gonna get u no matter what they say, u think am losing but I always get my way. Don't walk away when am talking to u, this aint no time for ur bad attitude. dont gimme that face, wen u know am relle down for the chase cuz my heart's already in it and am never gonna quit it when u finally gonna get it. dont walk away

04‏/05‏/2010

I saw an OWL!!! :O

I just saw a white owl and I'm SCARED! I have never seen an owl before, it looked me in the eye with her creepy eyes and made that creepy voice, like chuckling or choking! I'm really scared now specially I'm one hell of a superstitious person!!! so I hope it is not some type of omen. hope it doesnt mean anything :( I hate owls

01‏/05‏/2010

Scrabble-holic



still upset

Life is all about waking up each day to discover something new, about meeting same people but making new conversation, walking through old roads but still feeling nice about it, realizing that you have grown a day older but still feeling young at heart, being nostalgic about gone days but looking forward to better days to come. Little and simple things to enjoy yet they give you much joy"
Nice words eh? I'm not feeling anything like this, not anymore.. I wake up very late cuz I don't sleep every day before morning. I dont meet any ppl cuz I simply dont feel like going out , young at heart or not, what difference does it make. I'm fed up

30‏/04‏/2010

suki's sleeping style



UPSET


ok I dont know what's wrong with me, am being super sensitive I keep on getting angry all the time, and I feel like crying over the littlest things. it's not like I dont have reasons, but once I speak 'em out I feel silly and over reacting. I dont know but am just being tense lately and I DON'T LIKE IT! I dont even know if am sad, angry or anxious.
so i lay in bed with racing thoughts and then i tell myself to stop thinking and then that stupid thing happens where u’r thinking of not thinking!!! and that's the last thing I need now, more bounts of insomnia... life is GREAT

29‏/04‏/2010

TRY :)

If I walk would you run..If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me..
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me
The world is catching up to you while your running away to chase your dream
Its time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
and maybe im not ready.. but I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love.. we’ve been hiding enough
if I sing you a song would you sing along or wait till im gone
oh how we push and pull
if I give you my heart would you just play the part or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful
am I catching up to you..while your running away , to chase your dreams
its time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe im not ready but..
I'll try for your love

27‏/04‏/2010

Rumi



Love is from the infinite, and will remain until eternity.
The seeker of love escapes the chains of birth and death.
Tomorrow, when resurrection comes,
The heart that is not in love will fail the test
.

21‏/04‏/2010

so yesterday

You can change your life - if you wanna
You can change your clothes - if you wanna
If you change your mind.. well, that's the way it goes
But I'm gonna keep your jeans.. and your old black hat - cause I wanna
They look good on me, you're never gonna get them back
[[[At least not today, not today, not today]]]

'CAUSE..
If it's over, let it go and..come tomorrow it will seem SO YESTERDAY. SO YESTERDAY
I'm just a bird that's already flown away
Laugh it off let it go and..When you wake up it will seem SO YESTERDAY..SO YESTERDAY
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay.........

You can say you're bored - if you wanna
You can act real tough - if you wanna
You can say you're torn..but I've heard enough
Thank you... you made my mind up for me, when you started to ignore me
Do you see a single tear?? It isn't gonna happen here
[[[At least not today, not today, not today]]]

CAUSE... If you're over me, I'm already over you
If it's all been done, what is left to do
How can you hang up if the line is dead
If you wanna walk, I'm a step ahead
If you're moving on, I'm already gone
If the light is off then it isn't on
At least not today, not today, not today
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay

11‏/04‏/2010

Viva La Vida


I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemies eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"
One minute I held the key.. next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand upon pillars of salt, and pillars of sand
It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People could not believe what I'd become
Revolutionaries wait for my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string.. who would ever want to be king?
I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you know there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world

07‏/04‏/2010

faraway, so close

Green light, seven eleven
You stop in for a pack of cigarettes,
You don't smoke, don't even want to,
now, check your change
Dressed up like a car crash
The wheels are turning but your upside down
You say when he hits you, You don't mind.. because when he hurts you, you feel alive. is that what it is?

Red lights, gray morning
You stumble out of a hole in the ground
A vampire? or a victim? it depends on who's around..
You used to stay in to watch the adverts, You could lip synch to the talk shows.
And if you look, you look through me, And when you talk, its not to me
And when I touch you, you don't feel a thing

If I could stay, then the night would give you up
Stay, and the day would keep its trust
Stay, and the night would be enough
Far away, So close
Up with the static on the radio
With satellite, television.. you can go any where
Miami, New Orleans, London, Belfast, and Berlin
And if you listen I can call
And if you jump, you just might fall
And if you shout I'll only hear you

If I could stay, then the night would give you up
Stay, and the day would keep its trust
Stay, with the demons you drowned
Stay, with the spirit I found
Stay, and the night would be alive.
Three o' clock in the morning. it's quiet and there's no one around.
Just a bang and a clatter, as angel runs to ground.
Just a bang and a clatter, as angel hits the ground

25‏/03‏/2010


Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me? all things are gonna happen naturally! ~ I'm taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side and balancing the whole thing ~
but at often times those words get tangled up in lines,
and the bright light turns to night ~ until the dawn it brings another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

21‏/03‏/2010

prettiest friend

I love this song by jason mraz. his voice is flawless and I do love his music. this song is called "prettiest friend" I don't know wy I like it this much, but u know.. I have always believed that Love is simply a progress of friendship. and that love at first sight doesnt exist. I can't fall in love with someone whoz never been my friend, and so maybe, just maybe that's one of the reasons I'm single :P I'm not good at making friends. and keeping in touch, I have tried to change but I'm more comfortable this way, with my own social circle of friends. so I guess I'm expecting a miracle to happen :p like oneday someone's gonna fall down from the sky :)) lol ..actually I have no idea :) SO..for me this song ( even thu it's sad ) is like me falling in love with an imaginary person that only exists in my mind, silly but it feels good.
and so thats what u get when u read what goes on in a girl's mind :P sorry!

Lyrics

this is what i look like today
and i'm trying not to pull out my hair
i'm trying hard to grow it but I'm far too shy to show it back there..
that's probably why i like wearing hats
there's no denying i'm deferring the facts
avoiding confrontation
lacks tact in a situation
behind every line is a lesson yet to learn

but if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is overwhelming
and oh it goes to show
there's so much to know

i wrote this for my prettiest friend
but while trying not to prove that i care
i was trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare her away..
well she can't see she's making me crazy now
i don't believe she knows she's amazing how
she has me holding my breathe
so i'd never guess that i'm a none such unsuitable, suitable for her

and if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is complimentery
and oh it goes to show
the moral of the story is boy loves girl
and so on the way that it unfolds is yet to be told

i know that i should be brave
even pretty can be seen by the blind
i know that i cannot wait
until the day we finally learn how to find each other
redefining open minds

and if you ask me
the feeling that i'm feeling is overjoyed
and it's golden, it goes to show then
the ending of this song should be left alone
and so on cause the way it unfolds is yet to be told



20‏/03‏/2010

the worst lies are...


The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because we're afraid. We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we'll lose it. We fear that if we do not have love we will be unhappy." - Richard Bach

14‏/03‏/2010

Memorable Quotes ~ Great Expectations

Finn: That's a big cat! That's the biggest cat I've ever seen! What do you feed it?
Ms. Nora Digger Dinsmoor: Other cats.
~~~~~
Ms. Nora Digger Dinsmoor: She'll only break your heart, it's a fact. And even though I warn you, even though I guarantee you that the girl will only hurt you terribly, you'll still pursue her. Ain't love grand?
~~~~~
Finn: don't jump
Estella: would you save me?
Finn: not in this suit
~~~~~
Finn: What's it like not to feel anything?
Estella: Let's say there was a little girl, and from the time she could understand, she was taught to fear... let's say she was taught to fear daylight. She was taught that it was her enemy, that it would hurt her. And then one sunny day, you ask her to go outside and play and she won't. You can't be angry at her can you?
Finn: I knew that little girl and I saw the light in her eyes, and no matter what you say or do, that's still what I see.
Estella: We are who we are. People don't change.
~~~~~
Finn: The night all of my dreams came true, and like all happy endings,It was a tragedy, Of my device, for I succeeded. I had cut myself loose from Joe, from the past, from the gulf, from poverty I had invented myself. I'd done it cruelly, but I had done it. I was free!
~~~~~
Finn: Seven Years passed, I stopped going to Paradiso Perduto, I stopped painting. I put aside the fantasy and the wealthy, and the heavenly girl who did not want me. None of it would happen to me again. I'd seen through it. I elected to grow up.
~~~~~
Finn: It's my heart, and its broken.
~~~~~
Estella: I think about you. A lot lately.
Finn: I'm glad.
Estella: Can you ever forgive me?
Finn: Don't you know me at all?l
~~~~~

08‏/03‏/2010

suki


hide and seek؟

05‏/03‏/2010

we all stand tongether ~ the frog song

I used to watch this song every day when I was kid.. and sing along with frogs :D I love it



BOM BOM BOM BOM BOM.

WIN OR LOSE, SINK OR SWIM,
ONE THING IS CERTAIN, WE'LL NEVER GIVE IN.
SIDE BY SIDE, HAND IN HAND,
WE ALL STAND TOGETHER.

PLAY THE GAME, FIGHT THE FIGHT,
BUT WHAT'S THE POINT ON A BEAUTIFUL NIGHT?
ARM IN ARM, HAND IN HAND,
WE ALL STAND TOGETHER.

LA
KEEPING US WARM IN THE NIGHT.
LA-LA
WALK IN THE LIGHT, YOU'LL GET IT RIGHT.

WIN OR LOSE, SINK OR SWIM,
ONE THING IS CERTAIN, WE'LL NEVER GIVE IN.
SIDE BY SIDE, HAND IN HAND,
WE ALL STAND TOGETHER.

16‏/02‏/2010

Birthday girl!!!

Hi there
We have not moved yet.. the 1st few days -after dad's decision- were the hardest. I was very sad.. even used to cry sometimes . but it's ok now. I think I have finally accepted it. I still go to work which was not very nice today btw :P but nothing new! and.. after work I met a friend. we had a walk for about an hour.. It was nice I didnt even care about my ankle pain.. that was quite refreshing. I'm trying to enjoy my last days here -before I move- instead of acting like a grieving person

anyway I got nice presents for my Birthday ( on feb 15th). yes I have just turned 23! getting old, eh? hmm.. I didnt have a big party and actually am not a fan of parties so.. it was just nice having all these presents. and of course my favourite was.. the Nokia Xpress music! :D
finally a new cell phone! YES!!!!!! the one I used to have was pretty pitiful lol. and I was strongly attached to that phone I loved it. but I kicked his pretty a$$ the moment I saw the new one =) it's simply awesome

I dont know why I have to get teddy bears every year, I got one this year too it's pink and cute.. and last year I got a giant stuffed tiger that my cat is always scared of! it's cute I know but.. c'monnnn am 23!
by the way I watched the movie "UP" tonight, with my sister. it was one of my birthday presents, as I tried to watch it many times but couldn't. anyway it was awesome it will make u cry :P have a great day
Regards! pink


05‏/02‏/2010

We're moving.. AGAIN

My father told us today that we'll have to move in less than 10 days to our old place. and that's ok cuz I understand why he's doing this.. I'll have to leave work too so am kinda upset. and thats weird. cuz I always have the constant need of change but once a slight change happens I find myself sad and upset
it will take few days before everything goes back to normal, just imagine life without internet for a while and go back to simplicity.. Hmm u know few days ago power went off for about an hour, no TV no noise.. it was horrible I didnt know what to do. I just layed down closed my eyes and wished that power would come back on quickly, I know it's just a way to keep my mind busy. as I end up depressed every time I'm alone. I don't wanna think much. and actually that's the reason I'm working and the reason I'm online 24/7 .. and the only reason I can't sleep at night. I think A LOT. I need to keep my mind busy all the time. even when my work was not going very well I didnt have the guts to leave. I dont wanna go into another depression.. and Im not sure if this change is for better or worse. am really sad and scared.. but who knows.. hopefully it will be for better.. I hope so
pink


03‏/02‏/2010

GRAVITY

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long..
No matter what I say or do.. I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much.. than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall ~ just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me ~ and all over me. oh..
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
Set me free ~ leave me be. I dont want to fall another moment into your gravity..
Here I am, and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me ~ and all over me
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on The ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down.. but you're onto me and all over me..something always brings me back to you ~ and it never takes too long.
SARAH BAREILLES ~ GRAVITY

02‏/02‏/2010

Arabic Food


mmmmm.. makes me hungry :|

01‏/02‏/2010

So wait steadfastly


‘Al-Ghazali said, “If you see Allah, Mighty and Magnificent, holding back this world from you, frequently trying you with adversity and tribulation, know that you hold a great status with Him. Know that He is dealing with you as He does with His Awliya’ and chosen elite, and is watching over you, have you not heard His saying, So wait steadfastly for the judgment of your Lord – you are certainly before Our eyes. {At-Tur 52:48}”


Excerpt from: Trials and Tribulations – Wisdom and Benefits; footnote 21, pages 23-24 & footnote 20, page 22

thanks to Bushra


Love doesn't have to make sense , as it is a sense by itself

27‏/01‏/2010

Egyptian Music ~ Omar khairat

25‏/01‏/2010

Ahmed Hassan


What a great player.. he's 34 and still showing a great fitness :) the goal of Ahmed Hassan was like A bullet, firing a good ball from a distance of more than 35 yards
Ahmed Hassan won the best player of the match and got good prize on the day of arrival to the international game No. 170, the highest number of international Egyptian player in history. he's so great mashallah
Ahmed Hassan is simply the best

16‏/01‏/2010

I love this song.. one in a million



How did I get here I turned around ~ And there you were
I didn't think twice or rationalize 'cuz somehow I knew..
That there was more than just chemistry
I mean I knew you were kind of into me
But I figured it's too good to be true..

I said pinch me where's the catch this time
Can't find a single cloud in the sky
Help me before I get used to this guy

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen in the blink of an eye
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one
I can't believe it ~ You're one in a million
All this time I was looking for love
Trying to make things work
They weren't good enough
Til I thought I'm through ~ Said I'm done
Then stumbled into the arms on the one

You're making me laugh about the silliest stuff
Say that I'm your diamond in the rough
When I'm mad at you ~ You come with your velvet touch..
Can't believe that I'm so lucky ~I have never felt so happy
Every time I see that sparkle in your eyes

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen in the blink of an eye..
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one
I can't believe it ~ You're one in a million
All this time I was looking for love
Trying to make things work ~ They weren't good enough
Til I thought I'm through ~ Said I'm done
Then stumbled into the arms on the one

I said pinch me
Where's the catch this time
Can't find a single cloud in the sky
Help me before I get used to this guy

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen in the blink of an eye
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one
I can't believe it ~ you're one in a million

Miley Cyrus

14‏/01‏/2010

Memorable Quotes

And in that moment, everything I knew to be true about myself up until then was gone. I was acting like another woman, yet I was more myself than ever before.
Francesca: I want to keep it forever. I want to love you the way I do now the rest of my life. Don't you understand... we'll lose it if we leave. I can't make an entire life disappear to start a new one. All I can do is try to hold onto to both. Help me. Help me not lose loving you.
Robert: The old dreams were good dreams; they didn't work out, but glad I had them.
Robert : I dont want to need you, 'cause I can't have you.
Robert: Don't kid yourself, Francesca: you are anything but a simple woman.
This kind of certainty comes but once in a lifetime.

Feancesca: I'll blame loving you for how much it hurts. And then even these days won't be anything more than something sordid and... a mistake.
ROBERT (desperately) Francesca, listen to me. You think what's happened to us happens to just anybody? What we feel for each other? How much we feel? We're not even two separate people anymore. Some people search their whole lives for it and wind up alone -- most people don't even think it exists and you're going to tell me that giving it up is the right thing to do? That staying here alone in a town you hate, in a house you don't feel apart of anymore -- you're telling me that's the right thing to do!?
FRANCESCA
We are the choices we've made, Robert

10‏/01‏/2010

it's getting better

it's getting better. I will finally see my brother tomorrow :) I'm so excited. I was very happy today at work, even every one could tell that I look different. I got him a nice present too. I miss him a lot. Alhamdolillah
94:5 "verily, with every difficulty, there is relief"
اللهم ان ما بى من نعمة أو بأحد من خلقك فمنك وحدك.. فلك الحمد و لك الشكر

03‏/01‏/2010

it can only be better

I feel like crying.I'm trying to keep my mind busy all the time but I feel everything is falling apart
I miss my grandmother. until this moment it's still hard to believe that she's gone
and my brother I haven't seen for more than a month.. I miss him a lot. today he's turning 20.. he's a big guy now.. and I cant even call him to wish him a happy birthday
my work is not going well, I break down under pressure, and even the easiest tasks seem very stressful right now. I can't sleep. I stay awake all night for no reason... there's so much mess and I can't seem to take control of my life. I don't feel like working or doing anything. I know that everything happens for a reason, and I have faith that all of this is going to an end soon . I just should be more patient.. what can I say.. if it can't get any worse then it can only be better.. Rest in peace granny and Happy Birthday to u bro

01‏/01‏/2010

Random & Silly


I have always wanted to get in a cab and say: Follow that car
I hate breaking notes, bcuz I know I'll spend the coins without care
when I read capital letters, the VOICE IN MY HEAD YELLS
I don't care if there's a fridge full of food, there's NOTHING TO EAT
"can I see ur phone" doesn't mean "Can I see ur messages"
when I see a tall guy I secretly thank him for making me feel short
No, I'm not lying but when u look at me like that, How can I not smile?l
the world is not gonna end in 2012
Hugs from behind are the cutest
Hey..yes? .. are u awake?.. No, I'm talking in my sleep
I'm not actually mad at u, I just want u to care
I wish I could record my dreams and watch them later
I love the smell of petrol
Arabs dont live in tents
sometimes when I walk I try to keep my feet in the little square tiles
I'd rather text u than call u
u get the butterfly feeling when u like someone
I love it when google changes their Logo to match the occasion of the day
I love the smell of Rain
I type things into google to see if I typed them correctly :P
I close my eyes for a second and wake up to find I slept for two hours
I hate people that dont text back and I hate getting texts that only says"k
I let chocolates melt in my mouth instead of chewing quickly
I cant stand to hear my voice in recordings or videos
I hate the 160 chapter texting limits
I like flipping the pillow over to get the cold side
people dont really want jobs, they just want money
wy do Hygine products only kill 99.9% of bacteria? I want the 0.1% killed too
I hate the word "ilu" it destroyed the meaning of "i love u
wy do u yell "Phone!"when the phone rings even though everyone hears it
I love dreams, it's like TV while sleeping
I keep my favourite songs on repeat till I get sick of it
I hate thinking of a really good comeback when the conversation is over
"I love u" is completely different from "love ya

this was the silliest post ever
 
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